JUST LIVE!!!!!

"Dear God,
Hi! How are things?
Uhm, I was wondering if You’d gotten the memo I sent You a while back about my life plans? This is totally not the life I had planned for myself and I thought that maybe You’d gotten a little busy and forgotten. Not to worry, of course. I totally get that You’re pretty busy! But, uhm yeah, if You could take a look at that memo and get back to me as soon as possibly I’d greatly appreciate it.
You’re the Best,
Ebony"


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It has been a while since I’ve blogged or written a note. I’ve been in a fairly constant reflective mode for several months and, until now, I haven’t had much to say as I’ve processed my latest self-discoveries. From the capacity to love to the inability to hate (no matter how tempting), I am seeing myself in an entirely different light and I’m kind of surprised by that. Why? Because, I thought that I’d be in a different place in my life by now.

Most of the plans I had for myself (i.e. graduate degree, career, husband, 2.5 kids, house and a dog by a certain age) have exceeded the “time limit.” I should be completely distraught. Or should I?

I listen to the concerns my friends have about the paths they’re on in their lives. I consider my own concerns about the path that I’m on. I think about the vision, cause and organization I am pouring my life into right now and the stronger woman I am becoming as a result. I take it all in and I realize that I’m content and I’m right where I need to be. Everything I’ve gone through up to this point has prepared me for this moment. I am being given the opportunity to decide what I’m going to do now. I’ve chosen to live in the moment by being content with the right now on the way to the future.

I am content because I trust that my life is unfolding just as it should. It took me a while to get to this place but now that I’m here, I don’t want to leave. It’s sweet, quiet and peaceful here. I haven’t abandoned responsibility or gone off the deep end, I just realize that my destiny is determined by how I respond to the challenges I face in life. Meeting each challenge with wisdom and faith in God helps me and keeps me going … on to the next challenge (because you know they don’t stop right?).

My hope for the people I know and love is that they, too, would be content. Don’t worry about what you don’t have and what you didn’t do. Face today’s challenges with wisdom and faith so that you can be better equipped for the challenges of tomorrow. You are exactly who you need to be and you can still work on who you want to be without obsessing over why you’re not there yet.

So, throw away your memo to God regarding your plans for your life and just live!





© E.G. Pollard 2010